Let’s try this instead

I’ve been doing it wrong all of this time. Since I started trying to create art, I’ve put a chokehold on myself whenever I set out to make my art. I created pretty drawings, focused on the technical side of drawing and painting, doing as I was told and trying not to offend anyone. I said things with it that I thought the people I was talking to wanted to hear. Bland, pleasent, dull, “pretty” appropriate. Things that reflected the emotions inside me during those moments when I felt happy and calm and working dilligently at the mechanical part of what I was studying a the time.

I’m ready for more. I want to start making art with my whole being, not just the socially acceptable side of myself, I want to peer deeper into myself and draw from my entire being. I read and go out into the world to learn. Now I want to use art to explore all of that I’ve been learning. To understand. To know.